Friday, June 24, 2011

The power of being fat...

The power of being fat. 

Fat. That's what it is. Does that offend you? Ok..Overweight. I rather fat myself. How many words are there to describe a person with excessive fat?

Big-Boned
Big
Large
Obese
Heavy
Tubby
Fluffy

Please, it's fat. Fatty Fat Fat. Whether you've been fat all your life or you had a baby or 2 (or 3 or 4), or you "let yourself go", maybe you had a rough patch in life and you ate your way through it. Whatever that reason may be, you are who you are. Sure, there are days I don't like my body. I don't like my huge ass (it's true, ask my family, I have my great-grandma's butt) or my small breasts. I HATE this stupid unsymmetrical roll on my back. There's always things you aren't going to like about your body. But for all those things, I bet I have twice as many I love about me. I love my long eyelashes and my curly hair. I love my toes and the deep dimples in my cheeks. Most of all, I love the way my husband thinks I'm incredibly sexy. What I'm saying is this: If you don't love yourself today, at 262 pounds and a size 22, with every stretch mark and cellulite bumps, you aren't going to love yourself at 150 pounds or a at a size 5. We have to love ourselves now! Ask yourself this; Why am I fat? 

My name is Lea Williams (this is when you all say "Hi Lea!"). I'm fat because as a child I was sedentary. We ate a lot of fried foods, junk foods and carbs. Growing up, I didn't know any better. And as an adult I have struggled to change those set in habits. 

Why do you want to lose weight?
I don't want to die at a young age. I want to run with my child and be active. I don't want to get out of breath anymore from walking up 5 steps. I don't want to ever feel the embarrassment of not being able to fit in an airplane seat or stadium seat every again. I want to feel good and not be weighed down anymore. Looking better is just a bonus.

You can do this. I can do this. Don't say there's no time. Don't say you cant. Don't say I don't know how. Don't wake up day after day and hate the body you're in or hate the way you feel. Only you can be the change you want in life. 

Like I always say...

Do or die people...




Wednesday, June 22, 2011

Fatty McFat Fat

I have to be honest, this losing weight shit, it sucks. Changing your whole way of thinking about food sucks. It aint easy, it aint for the weak and let me tell ya, it pretty much aint for no one. These last few weeks have been very trying for myself and for my husband. Between new jobs, pay cuts and personal issues, my head has been spinning and I'm trying so hard to keep a grip on shit. Ive been in a serious funk lately and its all I can do to hang on, because quitting is not an option (as we have previously discussed in case you weren't paying attention!) After my gain last week, I somehow managed to lose 1.5 pounds this week.Which is by pure LUCK because I ate like CRAP the last few days. But hey, I'll take it! So back on the wagon as of today. Its a new week and I'll be damned if I let fat be the winner!


Do or Die...

Saturday, June 18, 2011

Drenched in sweat much?

This week I have been walking in the morning. My husband started his new job so I am up very morning at 6:30am. I walk 1.33 miles, and then do aerobics. Man, it's hot. I swear it has be in the 80's already by 7am. Eck. But whatever, I'm still doing it. I really love doing my work outs in the morning because then I can have my evenings to relax with my family and not worry about my son being cranky because I'm cutting into his bedtime. Makes for a much easier workout! I cheated and got on the scale this morning...Ok every morning lol It's SAYS 260....But we will see OFFICIALLY on Wednesday!

Saturday, June 11, 2011

Public Accountability (not for the faint of heart)

At first I was only going to post this photo...


But then I said, what the hell...PUBLIC ACCOUNTABILITY! 

So, there you have me. In all my glory. Cellulite, rolls, spider veins, the whole bit. But its ok cuz I'll be skinny soon right? LOL

Thursday, June 9, 2011

Speed bump

So ya know when things seem to be going your way in life, and then BAM you hit a turd the size of a small cow and it totally derails you? Ya...pretty much sums up our week. But, I am not allowing this speed bump to derail my weight loss efforts.

I love 1lb this week. Not a lot, but still a loss and I'll take it!!

I bought 2 new shirts...in a size 1x!! I also tried on jeans..Ummm size 20!!!! From a 24!!! Holy smack my ass! Can u believe it??????

Wednesday, June 1, 2011

Man, this feels good!

I lost 5lbs this week. For a grand total of 13.4 pounds lost, putting me at 263.6! Ummm excuse me while I do the happy dance. I can't fuckin believe this shyt! Ok, I can..Cuz we been bustin our asses but still..ya know?

I feel so good. I feel like I look good. I like looking at myself now, and I like the way Barry looks at me. He is so supportive in this. He loved me while I was fat, and will enjoy me more when Im thin LOL And Im ok with that cuz I just feel better! I want to go out more, do more physical things with him and Taaj. It's a really awesome feeling! My curves are coming out more too which I LOOOOOVE. I feel like some kinda Latina hawt sauce LOL Lemme stop lol

Do or Die!!